i made a private and failed attempt
to broker a me of better extent
so that every ride in the hereon after
the circus tent
the carnie's laughter
would be unforgettable
i wanted to encapsulate for all of us
the loneliness of wandering
this greyhound bus
a community never found that was good enough
by a mistaken runaway carried along
in unstoppable shoes
i couldn't do it
there was no book
a thousand portholes
no me to look
perforated as cheese i couldn't work
i let leak each starry sentence
in the end i torched every sheet
snapped clean the floppies
destruction complete
a boyfriend i loved on bended knee
kept this garden fire under control
even if his fence charred and burned
i felt better
the old me lost
crazy shoes gone also
at whatever cost
the boyfriend who built the fire left as well
it was ground zero and there was an end to it
now a new attempt to be
a broker of a better me
i write a novel further and faster
no stallion unrest
no girlfriend laughter
just my quickening heart and this summit
then when a therapist
tall enough
questions me on the harder stuff
why the striving
for so far off
i say normal utterly normal
why indeed
when did it start
my childhood ambition
this over-pumped heart
so much to correct and pull apart
when already i am a child of god
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